The world is mine tonight.

Monday, October 23, 2006

I am back here, cause I remembered I have no friends there. My friends don't have xanga yet, I'll just wait.

Tuesday, October 17, 2006

We are an accident. and you`re my favorite one. <3

Okay.

So I might start a new blog. Xanga. Having a hard time looking for layouts in blogspot. At least there it would be a lot easier, and they have other cute stuffies you can put in your blog. :))

But I might only. `Cause there`s a lot going on, and I don`t know if I have time for any more of this.

Later late. :))

Sunday, October 15, 2006

Promises are meant to be broken.

Okay, so I know I said that I'd continue my last post, but here I am starting a new one. I just forgot what were the other parts of my babble. So yeah.

I finished everything I needed to do. It was a relief. Only the Social quiz I didn't end up memorizing everything in the book. It's sad. Lol.

I'm thinking about changing my layout, but there's no time anymore. Exams are this week, and I'm scared on what the outcome might be.

What else? Hmmm... some of my classmates went here for the Computer project, they wanted me to teach them. It's not because it's hard, it's because they didn't listen to our teacher when he was discussing the project. Haha.

I'm afraid of the Social quiz tomorrow, I might flunk it.

Have I told you I've been the class pariah now? =)) =)) I'm an outcast. I used to belong; I used to know everything about everyone. From TV up to the latest music and latest electronics stuff, but now I'm the last to know.

I'm caught up in my own little word. I guess the borderline between the nerd and me, is that I get to listen to...well...music and that I get to read teen books. Well, technically I don't have time to read, school activities get in the way. And yeah, the only thing that makes me different in the slightest way from a nerd, is that I don't wear glasses. Thank God.

I hate that I don't have time for myself anymore, and if there ever was, it would be...sleeping. And a little bit of the internet. I wish I were ordinary again, like before. Where I don't study too much, and yet get good scores. Days when I get to watch t.v. whenever the fucking hell I want, cause there are no fucking projects to get in the way.

Irresponsible student. That's what I want to be. But I can't. People expect too much. Way too much, that it's becoming overrated.

Life is just there to make it suck even more.

I've said this a million times before...

I hate you.

Friday, October 13, 2006

Should I trust this dialect to convey the right effect?

Woah, it's been so long, people. A week or two, I think.

So much has happened, that I don't know where to start.

Stuff happened like:

the big blackout. It was irritating- 6 days of no electricity. Almost a week. It was retarded, I swear. I started appreciating nature. =)) =)) I know, it's so unlike me. Lol. I love candles now, to be honest. I'm getting mesmerized by looking at it, and I feel so sad for people who lost their roofs and their houses fallen by trees. Our street looked like a jungle, minus the wild animals. Lol. But hey, I was lucky, I only experienced a 1-day blackout. We have a generator. ;;) :)) :))

back to school. We made-up for the lack of classes. 2 Saturdays. I hate that we have to suffer from the blackout, but I love that we don't suffer from their activities in school for 4 days ( minus the weekend). Unfair. First, because it wasn't our fault that the typhoon came. Second, we have a humongous amount of work to do - assignments, projects, quizzes etc. Third, I hate it because Saturday, is the only day I could rest, from the stress they're giving us. They're practically going to make it 3 Saturdays, but they didn't cause we have exams the following week.

P.E. exam. Typical arguments. Typical Class president. And typical non-followers.*ehemmeehem* Lol. We're sticking to Hawaii, me and my other two friends, and the others they're performing Spanish and Spanish dance. Yes, they're two. Apparently, the typical president is being typically annoying and practically - yes, practically *rolls eyes*- copying the other Spanish people's dance.

Filipino. It just had to make extra pa. Our teacher wanted us to do the next quarter's activity now, so that we can finish it early. Yes, he is enthusiastic at the same time, being annoyingly agressive about time.

My teacher's demo for something. I was the star. =)) =)) =)) It was a video-taped demo. She has to pass it to some professor. I repeat, I was the star, only if the battery of the video camera didn't die. Sad, right? And I didn't attend the demo today, cause I had an X-Ray for the braces I'm going to have. Sad, right? What am I going to look like? : :-S

Continue this later, loves. :-h

Wednesday, September 27, 2006

I hope this post starts a craze, the kind of post that ignites the airwaves.

Today was ugly.

I woke up wayyyy later than the usual time. Fucker. I woke up around 6 :30 am, so I was like cramming, I thought I wouldn't reach school. =)) =)) =))

P.E. was fun. Hawaiian. Pearly Shells and Hawaii 50. The dance was... hilarious. Lol.

We practiced here in our house today. It wasn't technically a practice, the boys just played DOTA. Well, the girls did their assignments. How good little persons we were. ;;) We played patintero afterwards outside our house. I didn't know how to play anymore. I sucked. Sucked, sucked, sucked. =)) =)) =)) =))

I found out new songs today, Errol kept downloading stuff here in LimeWire.

Anyway if you're wondering why I am still up, I slept a while ago. I just finished studying.

Let us all pray, I wake up early tomorrow. *Crosses Fingers*

P.S. I found something ironic. How come she talked to me about that thing when she was saying mean things about me -because I was doing it- to her friends behind my back? Sometimes she can be a very... spontaneously "nice" person. The minute she saw my friend while she was talking with her friends, she became all nice and inoccent, like she wasn't saying any fucked up things about me. It is true, but did I ever get told by it? Noooo, because it's not "illegal" Miss I-get-everything-right-and-I-never-make-mistakes-only-people-unlike-me-do. Fucker.

Monday, September 25, 2006

Breathe in so deep, the air is blessed you share with me.

A post every day, is very unsual. Lol.

Today was a suuuuper lucky day. We didn't have those overrated chek-up tests which were just for class standings. Today was fun.

Pau bumped her head at the door when she was trying to open it. Kat made a sort of embarassing moment again. Those were fun to see. I was the only person who saw those incidents. Lol.

I forgot my calculator today; I left it at home. What a fucker. So I had to borrow. And English was retarded. I thought I heard her say "Japanese Literature" not "Japanese Traits". It was annoying. I got three mistakes, no matter what she decides on if their answers are correct, I wouldn't be getting benefits either. Lucky them, they listened. *Sigh*

Listening to Mix Tape by Brand New.

Sir Laurel got me freaking out in class. He told me since I got Top ! ... I should go solo on the project for 3rd quarter, since I got Top ! whatever this quarter. Was it my fault that I got that position? But it would be unfairly evil, if - God, I hope to still be in top !- I go solo. When was being good ever become this hellish? Lol. Save me. But anyway, I still don't know yet what the outcome might be, but I still pray I get it, even if there are consequences awaiting. Lol. Solemn much?!

I'm in a much better mood than last night, maybe too much ham sandwich is good for me. Lol.

Ohh have I mentioned that Kat's eldest sister and my ever so vain eldest brother knew each other since they were both in college? But anyway, Kat said it was "destiny". Whatever. I shall warn her sister, my brother's kind of a... the end.

"Are you like funny?" Lol.

But her sister's like suuuper pretty; unlike her. Kidding. They're so not alike, I don't even see any resemblance. She's adopted maybe? Kidding. Love you, Kat.

We officially have a theme song : What I've Been Looking For.
We sing that song whenever we're together, so basically that's what we've agreed on.

"It's hard to believe that I couldn't see, that you were always right beside me..."

She's fun to be with; sometimes annoying. But yeah, she's fun. And she's carefree. And super smart. Lol.

Jesus Crust -- I got that from some boards thing. Funny, right?

Bye...uhmmm...people.

Sunday, September 24, 2006

She gets the skills from the pills, she gets the pills from the skills.

I didn`t end up finishing everything I had to do. And it sucks. Big time.

Although I finished the basics and the most important stuff. It was a relief to have finished all the things that had to be done.

I am exhausted, that what I wanted to do right now is to relax - which I am doing right now - and forget whatever`s gonna happen tomorrow. But I can`t do that, can I? My life is so complex, not just because of school but also with personal matters, it`s a bit mixed, I cannot sort it right. I pray tomorrow`s gonna be fine, or else I`m toast.

I just realized that I hate what I used to love before. It`s fucked up. Everyone wants to bring you down, even in the simplest way. If I had one wish, that would be not waking up for some retarded reason. Lol.

I`m just here to vent and vent and vent. Why does she always have to be good in everything, and have everything that I have always wanted? Why does she want to take everything away from me? I know it'` unintentional, but somehow whenever we're together, there's tension, an awkward tension, like whenever she comes around, I want to hide and not ever speak to her - but I can`t do that she's my friend, I can't say she's my bestfriend because I feel irritated standing next to the person who you`ve conjured being you in a dreamily way. I hate that the person I wanted to be, is with me; talking to me, laughing with, having arguements with and doing things with. And now the new friend I have found to replace her was well... getting close to her. I envy her in so many ways, and it`s bad right?

We share so many things in common, that she does without even getting strained. I have done things which weren't nice, that I got caught for, but never did once she got caught; hers was even worse than mine. I feel like we shouldn't be friends, she's way overrated and I'm... underestimated. Eventhough I have this some sort of thing with everyone, I don't really feel... unique or maybe different, like I'm missing out on something.

Ever since the day she shoved at my face how correct she was in what we did, I felt down and annoyed, annoyed to her, to the people who follow her, so I felt mostly annoyed to myself. Consequently, I avoid being with her at all times possible.

I might even quit the club I had joined in, Comm. Arts Club. I might even quit the band too. I don't know what I'm feeling right now. I just don't want to be associated with her in any way possible or even be connected to her.

Melodramatic much?! I guess I could say that. Hey, I'm venting, remember?

Bye fuckkerrrrs.